December : THEN to NOW – Part 2

Yes, how December 2011 arrived I did not even realize. After having fun-filled months, some problems both personal and professional aroused and life seemed to stop moving. I felt as if I was not living but just existing. I was not alone but felt lonely. The mundane day included getting up, having breakfast, going office, reading, having lunch, returning home, cooking and having dinner, if interested reading again and then sleeping. I felt happy for a day or two and then remained sad for the next few days. Failure, success, attraction, closeness, love, lust, profiles, projects, colleagues, misunderstandings, all irritated me. I was no more interested in going to office. Many roads were seen in front of me but I was facing trouble in choosing the one. I was finding myself on the same phase when I was in college with no job. At times, I felt leaving this job and this city of which I got so bored. Though I had a lot to do I was always idle. I suffered intense feeling of inferiority on seeing others. Even if I decided something, my mind was not accepting it. I was searching myself, the real me had hidden somewhere in this confusion. When I looked back over few months, I noticed that I did not called people anymore but only received calls; no more did I planned for any outing, no updates on facebook, no sketching, no snaps clicked though I loved photography and above all no laughing out loud not even smiled often which once used to be a part of my face.

I felt frustrated, irritated and abysmal. I felt as if I faced a fiasco. I was not sure of the main reason behind all this. I did not know what made me so upset. One day, after a good conversation with myself my friend I doubted whether there was some problem actually or I was creating it. What was stopping me? That’s right. There was nothing. I think we like to complicate things when it is really quite simple.

Then, I realized I should not worry about the worry else it would soon dominate me. I remembered one saying, β€œSmile and the world smiles with you; frown and you frown alone.” If you find what it is that makes you happy and who it is that makes you happy, you are SET from that upSET. So, I made my mind to become as LIVELY as before, to LIVE my life, to spend my ME-TIME and above all to LOVE myself. I was created to be ME then why should I run from it. It’s okay not to be perfect. πŸ˜› πŸ™‚

I thank God that I have now understood it and feeling pretty good to prepare for my future.

“I sometimes thought I want to get disappear but now I realized all I really want is to be found.”

P.S. – I’m all set for the year 2012.Β  πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€

P.S. – Stay away from people who try to belittle your ambitions, small people always does that.


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Anshul Rautela

Hello, Thanks for stopping by my blog. :) I’m a girl who is not-so-simple, believes in moving with the times and don’t believe in living a bland life. Takes life easy and enjoy me-time. Creative by birth, Traveller by mood and IT professional by chance. I like to share my experiences and so I blog. I love laughing, making friends and clicking pictures. Keep Visiting... :) :)

9 thoughts on “December : THEN to NOW – Part 2”

  1. loved it dear…wish u to keep rocking………
    I cant imagine u to be distressed..why dint u call me…we could have good discussion over it… πŸ™‚
    I think, everyone passes through this phase in life at several moments, the only thing which can distinguish you from others is that how u work upon urself to come out of it..
    Very happy to get the end part of ur article..
    very truthfully, u will feel urself much wiser than u was befre now… πŸ™‚ .

  2. Thank you ma’am. πŸ™‚
    Yes , I would have felt much better on talking to you but I dint feel like talking to anyone then.
    I disliked myself during those days as I don’t used to be like that.
    Well, now it’s all fine and feeling much better after your comment. πŸ™‚
    Be in touch ma’am!

  3. hey anshul cutie ….. when the world says”give up!!” then hope whispers:”try it one more time” πŸ˜‰

    dear U r d danny of ur lyf ……. πŸ˜€ why to feel inferior … when u ve ur breathing zone n grey cells… …
    ..dnt ever disappear …dear ds s true infact ” fight back becoz kalyug mein even ur close frendz ll stamp u to reach d peak …. so ” gurl smile a curve dat sets everything straight…..

    .. i know failure slaps u n public but huh … wen for some diamonds out dere ” success hugs u late ” after all hum lambe race ke ghode hain πŸ˜› …………

    enjoy lyf tension free auron ko dene ka …… cry out wen wordly problems get on u best remedy ..
    zindagi na milegi dobara chilaxxx dear so filmy hai par attain heights πŸ™‚

    n m dere for u Ms anshul wen u r nt feeling gud … n luv’d ds . ds was my share πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

  4. Hey Anchul, was it really like this? But, you know what you did laugh out loudly when you were with me ;-):P , guess you missed my company ;-). Anyways, I am always there for you anytime and every time πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ And inferiority complex, really, unbelievable!!!! All the best from here on, Cutie Pie……… πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

  5. Heya Bashob…
    Yeah it was like that for sometime so thought of posting it. You know sharing lessens the pain. πŸ˜‰
    Thanks a lot for being there for me always! Hmmm.. really… me n inferiority complex… ooops!
    Thanks again for the wishes. πŸ™‚

    1. Yes dear, sharing really lessens pain. Seems you have taken a leaf out of my book. πŸ˜€ And please feel free to call me anytime you feel sad, because I will definitely cheer you up (provided I am not sad myself :D)

  6. what a great experience in your life ,going back to village and met all family ,specially dealing with all circumstance on the ways .I was hoping some day you will give back something for community ,likewise build school or Clinic or community . the reason why i m telling you those thing ,becoz i m doing this thing since 14 yrs in my life .i hope some day i will there soon.Cheers!!

    L.Tenzin Negi
    Co-founder /Chairman
    GIFT to GIFT Org
    Studio City,California,USA

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